Lost Innocence

Sitting there a shade of who I used to be

Trying to figure out where it all went wrong

My innocence has gone, been doing it for so long

Eyes upon the course but I can not see

Now just one more word in the cutters song

I opened that door now I am afraid to close it

Reasons to do it, the lies my reflection told

Pretending I am fine, leave things untold

I caress myself with sand papers roughest grit

Will I be able to break this dangerous mental hold?

Being pulled back into the addiction of pain

I know what I am tempting, what is at stake

I can't take anymore, giving into the break

Eyes closed, arms out, bloodied in my lane

I give up as madness on my body starts to rake.

©Josh West