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Fire of Indecision

  • Writer: A Metalhead's Poetry
    A Metalhead's Poetry
  • Oct 26, 2022
  • 1 min read

Doubt in myself leads the way

Insecurities carved in stone

Not sure of the truth in what others say

Thanking them for their care, their kindness unknown

Will I ever stop tearing myself down everyday?


In my mind, thoughts always churn

Am I good enough? Will I ever be?

Maybe I should wait for fate to take another turn

Am I smart enough? Will I ever be?

The fire of indecision, am I going to burn?


Making choices is a chore, which way to go?

Afraid to choose, if I am wrong I can't restart like a game

Doubt, choices, chilling my blood and making my brain slow

Picking wrong would be bad, if I don't, will I stay the same?

Or will I be changed like a feather by a careless blow?


If right or wrong, will I survive?

My heart says yes, my brain strongly disagrees

If I go down, is there anyone who will revive?

All I want is to be truly me

But isn't that like taking a blindfolded, head first dive?


I know that feeling this makes me a coward

Each day facing the world feeling listless

Not ready to move when over me shadows have towered

Afraid to move even though I am in a bath of souring piss

How can I go on while feeling less empowered?


So if you see me in a corner weeping

I have a choice to make, please make my choice

Because through my eyes, my courage is leaking

So please choose and give my cowardness a voice

Will you stand by me when the choice starts reaping?

©Josh West

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