Hatred in my heart will deeply infest
No words can ease my rage, so vile
Left with a sour taste, like drinking bile
A dark entity inside, I am failing the test
A friend in was in need, I couldn't aid
Feeling pathetic, I failed my friend
Try as I may, I couldn't help her mend
Will she accept any help or slowly fade?
My help is needed, too stupid to assist
Punshment! Punish! My heart cries
But in doing so a part of me slowly dies
Hopeless help given while my soul will resist
I want to help but don't know what she needs
I know she needs something to let her cope
But can I give it? Me, weak like worn out rope
Can I save her while I struggle in the reeds?
I failed her but I won't ask to be forgiven
I don't deserve forgiveness for not being there
Unable to give her comfort, compassion and care
So I will stay here being guilt driven.
©Josh West
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